my so-called life

in just a few hours, i will officially be checking off a different box in my applications as i am now part of that "30-35" age bracket.

funny how something so simple could be quite so profound.

as i am writing this blog post, i honestly don’t know how i should feel about the whole thing.

on the one hand, i feel a little sense of elation knowing that i should be celebrating another year of existence. one more year to do God’s work, to be the best person i could be. one more year to be thankful for the people who came into my life and made it so colorful just by their "be-ing." another year to be grateful for family and friends who have enriched my life in such a way that i never thought was possible.

on the other hand, i somehow also feel a little sense of loss. not that i should be grieving, but i do feel as if some people i used to be with are no longer on that same "place" where i am and its not something that either one should be faulted for. people do move on to different chapters in their lives and we simply have to accept the fact that your closest bud a couple of years back could no longer be your bosom buddy at this particular moment. its just the way it is. but when you do look back and remember the good ol’ days, you cannot help but feel that loss somehow.

i guess when you turn a year older, it all comes down to this… you want to be with all the ones you truly care about. it doesnt matter how big or small the celebration is, you just want to "be" with them. that is what we should be rejoicing about. and for me to miss those people, i cannot look at this day without feeling that sense of loss alongside that sense of rejoicing.